Turning 25

As I look back on the past 25 years I noticed my life was full of ups and downs which were all blessings from God! I married very young with not knowing the outcome of my husband and how long he really had. The fear of him passing and picking up the pieces afterwards was unbearable when I thought about it. But God had my life all planned out for me and He knows exactly what hes doing. He blessed me with my family, my Hayden. I doubted and fear why I had Hayden. He was not planned or wanted.. I know that sounds so horrible but I was still dealing with the fact Dylan was sick and we had NO money literally we just got married! I feared the only reason I was going to have this baby was so Dylan could have a son before he passed. Which made the fact he was going to die a reality. Later with prayer I realize that was so lame of me to think that! When I felt the first kick of Hayden I fell in love! We then moved to Dayton because of Dylan's career when Hayden was 7 months.. It was scary not knowing anyone..we had no family around us we were alone.  We grew even closer than ever! I know now that was the best thing for us as a couple and family! We met the most amazing people! People that never judged us and loved us whole heartedly! You could have everything in the world or nothing and they would love you either way!  I got a really good job down there and loved it! We were there for only 2 years boo. Dylans condition was stable and we decided to give Hayden a brother! When I was 9 months pregnant we got a call that someone was hiring back in Akron and they wanted Dylan! I was so sad to leave my dearest friends but the opportunity for my children to be with family again was right there and we needed to take it! Moving when you are 9 months is no fun btw :P. When we moved back I became closer with my side of the family again. I grew closer to my oldest brother who I did not even know because he is 11 years older than me. Him and his family are a blessing and I am so thankful they are in our lives!  I just read back through my blog and realized this is kind of a bio and boring lol. Sorry about that! But I guess next in this timeline would be my Jack Jack! What a fun experience he is! Hayden loves loves loves having a brother to pick on, wrestle with, hug and kiss everyday! Looking back on my life so far I don't think I could have planned a better life! You know, not everything is perfect and things go wrong but our familys foundation is faith and love. No matter what happens after 25 I know what holds this family together! My blog is called one miracle at a time because we all have had miracles in our lives and it is up to us to remember those everyday when things get rough! The recent miracle in our lives is Dylan! Literally he was declared a miracle by his doctors! Even though he had brain surgery it was only to lengthen his life and even if it worked it would leave scars in his brain. The pictures of his brain were perfect! It was unbelievable! They thought it was someone elses procedure! It is impossible to have a malformation in your brain and it disappear as if it were never there! But nothings impossible for God! Thank you Lord for all the miracles you give us! Isn't God a miracle in itself you can't see him or hear him yet he speaks to you in ways that are unbelievable? They are "signs" and the emphasis is on God demonstrating his underlying normal activity in remarkable ways.  I have a feeling my blogs are going to have a lot of God in them! :D I know this blog probably has a lot grammatically errors in it and kind of goes in a circle but I appreciate everyone who reads it! This is fun and I really enjoyed writing a blog! YAY!